Three Years Ago Today

Not many people know this besides my family because I was offline for a time in 2012. Three years ago today, I almost died. I was in the hospital for a week with no visitors. It was depressing but in all reality, it was my own fault. I pushed people away. I was ashamed. I felt like there was no place for me in society. So I lived my isolated little existence until I stepped out of my comfort zone and accepted myself for who I was deep down inside. I am not my illness. I should not be ashamed. I think I am a very sweet, intelligent, and motivated person. I had to accept myself in order to move on in life and become the person I am today. It takes a near death experience or watching others around you die way too early to put life in perspective. I have accomplished many things in the past four years. I have pushed myself to meet many goals and step out of my comfort zone time and time again; to face fear and anxiety and come out on top. I'm still afraid of people judging me but it's more miniscule than it's ever been. I have never been happier in all my life! I have friends and family whom I love dearly and love me too; just the way I am. I am proud of the person I've become and intend to continue to challenge myself in the future. I believe I am ready to finally accomplish the goal of helping others who are in the same situation. I would like to give hope, offer tips, and inspire others with my illness or other mental illnesses. This is my goal for 2015. I know I will achieve it because when I set my mind to it, I usually can do it.